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یه وقتایی، 

تقریبا میشه گفت هرشب 

بی خوابی میاد سراغم.

شده عادتم.

دیر میخوابم و صبح هم خیلی نمیخوابم و میرم شرکت. بعضی روزها تا دیر وقت هم شرکتم و مواقعی هم که خونم فقط فیلم میبینم. 

همه اینکارها رو میکنم تا خسته بشم و کمتر فکر کنم و بخوابم، اما خب ... جواب نمیده.

یه شب فکرم درگیر کار، یه شب برنامه نویسی، یه شب طراحی، یه شب درگیری های روزمره و بقیه شبها خاطرات!

امشب از ساعت ۱۲:۳۰ اومدم تو تخت. ۲ دیدم فایده نداره گوشی رو برداشتم و بازی، اونم جواب نداد و اینستاگرام.  بعد هم توییتر.

اونجا یکی یه رشته توییت کرده بود از رفیقش که سرش کلاه گذاشته بود، خیلی شاکی بود که چرا رفیق آدم که اینقدر بهش اطمینان داشته پولش رو خورده.

حق داشت.

داغ دلم رو تازه کرد.

بعد دیدم سید امین چ..، یه نویسنده ای که دوستش دارم، توییت کرده تو دنیا از یک نفر اونقدر کینه دا ره که پانزدهم به پانزدهم هر ماه سایت بهشت زهرا رو چک میکنه ببینه طرف مرده یا نه!

شاخم در اومد. دیدم خداییش هنوز به نقطه ای نرسیدم که از مردن کسی خوشحال بشم. هیچ کس.

یعنی یه روزی میشه که ....

امیدوارم.

روزهای خوبیه.

راضی ام ازشون.

Someone Like You, - Adele

I heard that you're settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now
I heard that your dreams came true
Guess she gave you things, I didn't give to you
Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light

I hate to turn up out of the blue, uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it
I had hoped you'd see my face
And that you'd be reminded that for me, it isn't over

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you, too
"Don't forget me, " I beg
I remember you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead"
"Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead"

You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised in a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue, uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it
I had hoped you'd see my face
And that you'd be reminded that for me, it isn't over

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you, too
"Don't forget me, " I begged
I remember you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead"

Nothing compares, no worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you
"Don't forget me, " I beg
I remember you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead"

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you, too
"Don't forget me, " I begged
I remember you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead"
"Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead"